Lost My Appetite

Well, basically I would rather never even see another girl than have the relationship my parents have. So I turned on this song by Hillsongs United.

would you believe me if i said we are the ones who can make a change in the world
would you believe me if i said all of the dreams in your heart can come true today
would you believe me if i said life can be all that you want it to be today

if i had wings i would fly
cuz all that i need, You are
and if the world caved in around me,
to You i'd still hold on
Jesus, because of you, i'm free!

would you believe me if i said God can make miracles happen today
would you believe me if i said you don't need to wait for the answer before you step out in faith
would you believe me if i said nothing is ever impossible for God

just live your life
with God inside
you won't regret,
one moment of it
just give all that you can for God
for God.

mmm. .. maybe i will eat the cake. heh, or just watch it melt. yeah, probably watch it melt. i'm so tired. so very tired. but it is my own fault. i'm the fool in the red shoes, what can you do. but i have so much strength through Jesus that it's amazing. I'm getting closer than I have ever been. Nothing around me has changed (nothing. trust me.) and yet every day is new and beautiful, and I can love people with His love, not my own (well, i'm still kind of working on that one. i look at the outsides of people way to much as of now).

i'm skipping ski club right now. i have a paper to write. and i get to play a show tomorrow night. me, play a show, in a band. it's a friggin dream come true. well, it may only be a one song set, but hopefully the sound will be good and i'll get to meet new people. i like people ... a lot. i miss evan.

my goals for the rest of the week: cheer elise up... a lot and write a song